Who does that anyway? While most bloggers are probably sharing their thoughts with the world I'm blogging to myself, well for now anyway.
I'm still in limbo as a newbie and putting this blog together is of course taking forever! I'm feeling a little self conscious still so for now I guess this blog is more like a personal journal. I really never thought I would be blogging at all since what could I have to share that would be remotely interesting? Well that might just change I suppose if my hope to become a GS comes to fruition.
I'm only just at the application stage. I have applied to two different agencies, the first of which is in California and the second in New Jersey. At this point I'm leaning towards the latter since it is closer and I recieved a call the next day after I submitted an online request for more information. They were friendly and personable over the phone. Now I just need to figure out provided I'm approved, how they will compare to other more expereinced agencies since they just formally opened for buisness November of 2010. Hmmm
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Tuesday, April 19, 2011
My Decision
My decision to become a gestational surrogate comes from a strong desire to help another woman who because of cancer or other physical complications is unable to become pregnant and or carry her own biological child to term. (Or in my current situation/match for two wonderful gay men who I feel strongly will make wonderful parents but who just need a little help getting there) I suppose it is also a selfish desire that pulls me in this unconventional direction as well.
When I finally got the nerve to tell my husband about my interest in becoming a gestational surrogate, I also found myself searching for answers about my own motivations. Why of all things in this grand world do I jump on the computer as soon as the kids are asleep to do hours of research, read blog after blog about other women's journeys, read and ask countless questions on http://www.allaboutsurrogacy.com/ and think nonstop as I lay in bed or do the dishes about lending my body and my soul to a couple I don't even know?
The reason is simple and to me makes sense. Yes I love babies and being pregnant is amazing but by no means easy. Morning sickness and heartburn during my most recent pregnancy were close to unbearable and the itchy stretching feeling as my belly grew was uncomfortable. Trying to sleep during those last few months was short of a miracle yet despite all of these woes the birth of a baby makes it all worth it.
I feel the same way about caring a pregnancy for another couple. The joy of being apart of probably one of if not the most incredible moment of their lives, the birth of their child, seems like the greatest honor.
As I reflect upon my life and my accomplishments or lack their of and moments and experiences that are meaningful to me, I'm left wanting more. I'm most proud of my educational accomplishments although in retrospect I wish my choice of studies would have been different. My past employment experiences were ok but not life altering by any means. Getting married to my amazing husband and having children of my own is by far the highlight of my life. It brings a great sense of accomplishment and personal joy to me everyday.
So as I sat diligently searching for a part-time job online a few months ago I stumbled upon an add placed by a Surrogacy agency. From that moment I knew this was for me. This would be an opportunity to do something meaningful for me and life altering for another family. Some people donate to the Red Cross, volunteer their time by working in a soup kitchen or a myriad of other community service activities. Somehow becoming a gestational surrogate for me will be my way of giving and I truly feel bringing a child into this world for an infertile couple like this would be the most amazing spiritual and emotional experience I can imagine sharing with someone else.
When I finally got the nerve to tell my husband about my interest in becoming a gestational surrogate, I also found myself searching for answers about my own motivations. Why of all things in this grand world do I jump on the computer as soon as the kids are asleep to do hours of research, read blog after blog about other women's journeys, read and ask countless questions on http://www.allaboutsurrogacy.com/ and think nonstop as I lay in bed or do the dishes about lending my body and my soul to a couple I don't even know?
The reason is simple and to me makes sense. Yes I love babies and being pregnant is amazing but by no means easy. Morning sickness and heartburn during my most recent pregnancy were close to unbearable and the itchy stretching feeling as my belly grew was uncomfortable. Trying to sleep during those last few months was short of a miracle yet despite all of these woes the birth of a baby makes it all worth it.
I feel the same way about caring a pregnancy for another couple. The joy of being apart of probably one of if not the most incredible moment of their lives, the birth of their child, seems like the greatest honor.
As I reflect upon my life and my accomplishments or lack their of and moments and experiences that are meaningful to me, I'm left wanting more. I'm most proud of my educational accomplishments although in retrospect I wish my choice of studies would have been different. My past employment experiences were ok but not life altering by any means. Getting married to my amazing husband and having children of my own is by far the highlight of my life. It brings a great sense of accomplishment and personal joy to me everyday.
So as I sat diligently searching for a part-time job online a few months ago I stumbled upon an add placed by a Surrogacy agency. From that moment I knew this was for me. This would be an opportunity to do something meaningful for me and life altering for another family. Some people donate to the Red Cross, volunteer their time by working in a soup kitchen or a myriad of other community service activities. Somehow becoming a gestational surrogate for me will be my way of giving and I truly feel bringing a child into this world for an infertile couple like this would be the most amazing spiritual and emotional experience I can imagine sharing with someone else.
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